Dear Friends, I am so thinking so much about healing! Specifically, healing our inner children. I know I am not a therapist, nor do I have any training in psychology, but I can speak from my own life. And my inner child, Arnold, has been such a teacher to me. He also drives my effortsContinue reading “Are you the same me as before”
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Being scary
Dear Friends, I was recently part of a meeting to plan a pool party at a hotel. This was mainly for us Spellers. Someone mentioned a concern about other hotel guests being there. In the moment, I joked: “We can scare them away!” I could sense Tara’s concern about how this statement could be triggeringContinue reading “Being scary”
Out & About
Dear Friends, I had the most fun Friday afternoon and night! I so love being out and about, just like any other adult. I love seeing the scenes and people and action in active, lively places. I am so proud of my going out outfits and my emerging style and my growing confidence that IContinue reading “Out & About”
A Special Day
Dear Friends, It is Tara and my third Fluenciversary today! We started open communication three years ago. Wow! It is hard to believe all that has happened in these years, and hard to grasp all that it has meant. I still have a lot of processing of pre-fluency trauma and it is an ever unfoldingContinue reading “A Special Day”
On a beautiful life
Dear Friends,I have started processing more feelings, and poetry has helped. Here is one I wrote on Tuesday. I am so grateful I can express my words. This is about looking through old photo albums in my uncle’s house in Hiroshima. Thank you to Tara for staying up so late taking photos of them. YourContinue reading “On a beautiful life”
In loving memory of my Papa
Dear Friends, Among all of my feelings from my trip, I also am all full of memories of my Papa as it was his birthday last weekend. The fourth without his physical presence. Wow, it is hard to grasp! I am so glad I was able to publish a book of my cherished poems inspiredContinue reading “In loving memory of my Papa”
Back to a new reality
Dear Friends, Well, it sure has been a while! And it feels like I have travelled and grown more than two weeks or farther than the span of the Pacific! So I am home in a spatial sense, but I feel as if I am somehow in a different place! I am still processing itContinue reading “Back to a new reality”
About to visit the motherland
Dear Friends, I am so absolutely excited to share that I am leaving this week to visit Japan! I was born there, and it is where I gained and lost speech. We moved to the US when I was just four, in large part to seek “treatment” for autism, the advice given to us inContinue reading “About to visit the motherland”
Sadness is heavy these days
Dear Friends, I have been feeling the heaviness of sadness lately. Not my own, but the sadness of the world. Tara has said the same. Today, she shared with me news of three people’s passing, not among our close loved ones but still so saddening. One was Christopher Finnes, a young man who was anContinue reading “Sadness is heavy these days”
Out and about
Dear Friends, Wow, thank you for your great response to my book! Today, Tara and I are out in North Park, one of my favorite neighborhoods in San Diego. We love the restaurants and coffee shops here! And I love being out and about like any other adult. I love wearing my blazer and coolContinue reading “Out and about”