During therapy today, my amazing therapist and I were discussing contentment and the tendency for trauma to leave a legacy of hypervigilance and anxiety. I have been working so hard to manage these, so so so hard, and making progress and growing more resilient. At one point, I realized: it is so much work to be content, but it is also so much work to live without contentment, so I choose to strive for contentment.
It helped me so much to chat about these things. I am hoping it helps some of you, too!