Dear Friends,
I have had the worst dysregulation in a long time, probably in this year, in the past several days. I finally feel like myself again. This was not nearly as severe as in past years, which I am so grateful for. But it is still disheartening when a rough spell comes by.
My goodness, I was so loud. Shouting and stimming. Getting stuck in loops that I would shout over and over. I was so sick of it, but couldn’t stop.
I also kept harassing my mom by getting in her face and shouting. It is so stressful for her. I hate doing it. And I felt kind of high, like I was floating and not in my body. It was so unpleasant.
I honestly have no idea what triggered it. That is so frustrating. I am at a loss. I have run through sensible possibilities, but none seems to be a good explanation.
I am still on edge a bit. But it is much calmer than yesterday. So I will bask in this feeling of relief.
I hope you are all keeping well.
Your Friend,
Danny
