Dear Friends,
I am having an awful time. I hate that this happens and that it is still not clear why. It is the bane of my life.
I am so full of angry energy. The shouting and slamming things and compulsions are so distressing to me and my family. The dogs are terrified. This is awful.
This is a real part of my life. It is a real part of my family’s life. I hate it. Especially I hate stressing my mom. She endures the most of it.
There is no magic treatment. So I am always thrown into uncertainty over when I might feel better. That is the hardest part: not knowing when this turmoil might end.
I suspect the weather is somehow behind it. It is so hard to know but it is a possibility because I feel off in my body when the weather is like this. Who knows?
I will be okay. I always come through. But it is awful to be in the throes of this dysregulation.
Your Friend,
Danny
Danny With Words 
Dear Danny, Reading your post makes me think of my yoga guru – who helps me through challenging times. He says when you are experiencing pain (emotional, physical) it feels as though it will go on forever. But it doesn’t. Breathe. Time will pass. You will feel better. Sending love and light to you.
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Thank you, Lisa!
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Dear Danny
It makes me sad to hear this. My son is also non verbal. He is 29 now. He is 6’7″ and too strong for me and my husband to keep him. He is in a group home and goes to a day program. But lays on his bed and pulls the covers over his head when he gets back to his home. He shows no interest in a spelling board. He just seems sad. How do you think I could help cheer him up. Sometimes he gets very angry and violent.
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Oh this is so difficult! I think the best way to start is to presume competence. Tell him and show him that you know there is so much more in his mind than his body will show. And sometimes it is hard for our bodies to show interest even if we feel it. There are so many reasons for intense dysregulation, but trauma and feeling misunderstood sure do not help! There are good spelling practitioners out there who might be able to help. I am sending you all my best.
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