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Dear Friends, A small but mighty update: Today, I managed to put a puzzle away before finishing it. This is a big win for me! The puzzle was wearing me down. It was consuming my brain. It was about to spiral into fixation. I am not feeling great physically, so I was extra worried aboutContinue reading “Proud Moment”

Dear Friends, These recent days have been so wonderful. I am so grateful to have days like these. I am going to just list some of the fulfilling things I experienced: Stand-up Paddleboarding two Fridays in a row; dinner with our kind neighbors; coffeeshop reading and writing sessions; runs in the sun; celebrating my lateContinue reading “Days Like This”

Dear Friends, It is St. Patrick’s Day! My dad used to love celebrating. We would go to see a parade and enjoy the festivities at the House of Ireland at Balboa Park. He missed Ireland, even though he stated that he could never live in that weather again. His birthday is actually the day afterContinue reading “Happy St. Patrick’s Day”

Dear Friends, I have been in a great place recently. Regulated and mostly happy. So it was a good time to dive into some heavy stuff with my therapist. I have been wanting to figure out how to transform my rage into a less destructive feeling. It is only in adulthood that I have feltContinue reading “Exploring Anger”

Dear Friends, This winter has been unusually warm here. It is a bit bizarre, and I worry about how this might impact local ecosystems. But it makes for nice ocean adventures. I am sharing a more close-up photo of my best wave from last month (photo by Cliff Schumacher). I also am sharing screen grabsContinue reading “Ocean times”

Dear Friends, I am struggling with a sort of quiet despair. It is triggered by the news, and I am not sure if it is driving my compulsiveness or vice versa. I just feel so low about the evil and hatred that our society and our species is not only capable of, but allows andContinue reading “Despair”

Dear Friends, I had a great triumph this morning! I stood up multiple times on the surfboard! And I had my longest standing ride yet. This is huge for me! Usually I ride on my knees or tummy. I have tried standing, but have only succeeded a handful of times. But today it clicked moreContinue reading “Standing Up”

Dear Friends, I am still stuck in compulsive mode. I wrote this piece to try to express what it feels like. It was so tough to get my finger to my letters today. But I managed it. You can read it here: https://inconvenientlyyours.substack.com/p/stuck For more of my creative writing, subscribe to my Substack, Inconveniently YoursContinue reading “Some writing”

Dear Friends, I had a wonderful week or so of feeling very calm and happy. It was so nice. I love those times, when I am at ease and my true personality can come through without being disrupted by dysregulation. It is always special to be in that space. But a few days ago, theContinue reading “Compulsive”