Dear Friends,
It is been a while! I have been having a tough time, with a cold and also the emotions around moving and also this time of year seems to be hard for my regulation for some reason. It is better than previous years, but tough all the same.
I am full of emotions about this move. I am happy with the new house. But I am so sad to leave here. I am very sensitive in that way. I am mister nostalgia. So this in between is tricky for me. I am so feeling the attachments to place and to objects I have had since childhood, but that we need to donate because there won’t be space at the new house. This downsizing is a good thing, but it is hard to let go.
I also asked my family to involve me in all of these decisions. That helps. And I am able to get my body to help my mom pack. I feel proud of that. I am going to enjoy making the new place like home. So I am not all melancholy.
Here is a poem I wrote today about the sadness of letting go. It helped to write it. I am so dramatic but I don’t think I am alone in these feelings.
Thank you for caring about my experience with this process. I hope you are all staying healthy and taking good care of yourselves!
Your Friend,
Danny
In the Interim
Here to there
The to is a space
Neglected
Boxes half packed
Pink post-its marking farewells
To clunky but cherished
Furniture to donate
And measuring tapes
A Christmas tree half decorated
A garden half neglected
For we are not able to invest
In a later we will not see
I am in between
Clinging and reaching
Clenched heart
But I am not sure
How to know
What here was
If not a continuation
Of the previous there
And in twenty years
When I am a grizzled dignified
Elderly gentleman
In some European town
Sipping tea outside a café
And contemplating my next book
I will not still be
Sad about
The things
That will be loaded
Into the cavernous truck
To be driven out of my life.
Danny With Words 