Dear Friends,
It feels like autumn here in San Diego. I know people scoff at our seasons, but they are real and meaningful. The quality of light, the chilly dry mornings, the hushed ending of day. It feels calmer. Even with the holidays fast approaching, it feels more still.
I am feeling like I haven’t had much direction this year. It is hard to get a sense of it. I don’t have formal structure in my life, and these past couple of years have filled up with so many activities and goals, so it all feels a bit scattered and cluttered.
At times I feel a bit lost. I am still learning to navigate my new life. I am still limited by my disability. I am still unsure of where I will end up. My dreams are so big, and I am so constrained in what I can do, so I often feel so far from where I hope to be.
That said, I can say that I have done a lot this year. The podcast is a big thing. I wish it had a bigger and more diverse audience, but I am also in awe that hundreds of people listen. I would list off more accomplishments, but that is not the point here. I more want to focus on how I am proud of myself for even just maintaining my social media and my regular activities. That is my new baseline, and it is somehow easy for me to take it for granted these days. But really, that baseline is so much higher than I had access to five years ago. It is huge that my new routine seems so easy that I forget how monumental it seemed just a few years ago.
I think it is natural to forget such things. But it is so heartening to remember them. I am working on that.
I am so grateful to have you all to share these thoughts with. It is the season for contemplation of our harvests this year, a time to reflect on our labor and yields. I am hoping you can all find something encouraging and uplifting in this process.
Your Friend,
Danny
Danny With Words 