Dear Friends,
I am finally feeling stable these days. I still have flare-ups of dysregulation, but it is manageable. I actually feel so optimistic! It is a good way to feel after weeks of turmoil.
I have some exciting projects and goals. I am so feeling motivated and energized by them. I think you will really love some of these ideas! But I am needing to do more scheming before any more specific announcements. The suspense!
My support team keeps getting stronger. They are so working to ensure that my needs and goals are supported while trying to avoid burnout. They are my all-so-loving angels. I wish it were easier.
My goals are ambitious. I am such a big dreamer. Sometimes, it is scary to dream. When my life felt hopeless, dreams were an act of distraction from my suffering. There was nothing to be lost by dreaming because those dreams had no hope attached to them. Now, I can hope. I can try. But that means I can fail. That is very hard to accept. I am not used to having the space to truly try and to risk failure. All that is still new to me.
Maybe that fuels my anxiety these days. I think it is an important thing to acknowledge. I am trying to be brave and resilient in a way that is new to me. It is hard!
I will try to learn that failure is a part of the process. It is a lot to learn! I am so lucky that my support team is able to help me dare to dream things that I actually hope to do. Not every nonspeaker has that.
I hope you are also daring to dream and that your hearts are brave in the face of failure. This will be an exciting year!
Your Friend,
Danny
Danny With Words 