Dear Friends,
I hope you all had a good Sunday! I wish a belated Happy Father’s Day to all the dads and dad figures out there. I also wish those without a present father figure a lot of peace and solace if this was a painful day.
This was the fifth one since my dad died. And it was the first one where I decided to not strive to observe it. It was the first one where I acknowledged and accepted that I was too sad to do anything for it. And it was bearable to face the sadness. This felt so freeing!
I love my dad so much. And he is in my heart always. And it is time for me to trust that I don’t always need to try to process this grief. Sometimes I can just let it be.
This is the poem that I wrote about this.
Your Friend,
Danny
THIS TIME I AM, by Danny Whitty
For this all this
Since then
I have
Striven
Driven to be
Somehow in control
Though I knew it was never
Possible
But I wrapped my tender self
All around
With armor of effort
Flailing or later calmly
Swimming swimming swimming
Sometimes all so totally
Fine but still swimming
And I think it is time
To stop a bit
To climb onto a bamboo raft
Lie out in the sun
And see where the current takes
My all so
Tired self.
We share the fifth of June as a day of deep loss. My dad left this world that day in 2021. It’s hard to believe it had been 22 years this past June. I still think of him every day. And I will always think of you and your family Danny on the fifth day of the sixth month. xo
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